January 2009
61 posts
i'm currently sitting here with
two bottles of hydrogen peroxide, one uncapped.
a bottle of my father’s pills, unidentified… effexor? i think that’s just an anti-depressant.
a tub of bleach.
and an array of box cutters/razors.
and wondering when it was my depression came back.
…
i wonder, if i tried to kill myself, would my dad love me?
HAPPY BIRFDAY TNGAAA! AND HAPPY ANNIVERSARY FOR US! 8D
dear ashley,
as I was taking an existential walk this afternoon because my family was driving me homicidal, I was sitting on a swing in that playground, freezing my ass off, but listening to the white stripes, and thus pretty okay.
through a long line of camus-like wanderings I came to realize that I never see you anymore, and find this very troublesome.
long story short.
i miss you.
and your hot ass.
...
I feel discontented and depressed. my life needs a change. I’m not happy.
monday update 1.25.09 [a little delayed due to...
this week: pay off ticket, work a bit, ice
current obsession: watchmen
current guilty pleasure: america’s best dance crew
currently reading: paradise lost, mouthing the words by camilla gibb
currently wearing: old RICE cheerleading top, sweatpants, man loafers/slippers
currently craving: alcohol.
current preoccupations: graduation anxiety, one-sixth life crises
current tuneage:...
adolescence and abandonment
you’re a woman now
you’re fully grown
and soon you’ll be
out on your own.
graduation’s near
and freedom closer
but you would never
really have supposed your
life would be going this way
the difficulty drawing on
the realizations coming hard
as day crawls past each grueling day.
you’ll never see your friends again
soon you’ll be out on your own
to...
I’m just done. eff school, eff everyone, and ESPECIALLY eff my dad. I wish i’d applied to schools in AUSTRALIA or somewhere FAR FAR AWAY.
cue the apologies and the angsty confusion
Hey guys! I’m sorry I’ve been gone for a few days (if you’ve noticed at all…) but my internet was down and it was lamesauce!
I finally decided what to write my paper on… I’m doing elements of the ubermensch/overman (Nietzche, wooo) as the tragic hero in concordance with the elements of tragedy. sounds like a real barrel of laughs, no?
anyways, enough beating...
hey, internet’s back up! and I’m tumbling now…
WARNING WARNING PG-13
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lasirenapequena9: PENISES!
RCtiggr: COCKSS
lasirenapequena9: VUH JAY JAYS
RCtiggr: XDD
RCtiggr: ummmmmmm...
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lasirenapequena9: hahah nice
lasirenapequena9: BALLS
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lasirenapequena9: hrm?
RCtiggr: dur, balls
RCtiggr: but in ESPANOL
is it sad that I’m excited because my bangs look spectacular today?
Threadless.com
daniellefab:
Katie just got me hooked on threadless.com
…
boo D: I like my monies right where they are!
there was this one that I wanted SO BADLY once but it was out of print. D:
it had this sketchy tiger on it burning kites in a forest labeled ‘he hates kites’, and underneath it said ‘tiger tiger burning kites, in the forests of the night’
if anyone understands the...
I’m trucking on pretty okay, surprisingly enough, but awfully concerned about @kaylafab, and wondering if I should maybe give her a ring…
heavy moisturizer and winter weather make me :[
http://tinyurl.com/bo7e8o « I want this SO badly.
“beneath me, this awful city, it screams like an abattoir full of retarded...”
– rorschach, watchmen
seventy degrees today.
“What the cynics fail to understand is that the ground is shifting beneath them.”
– Barack Obama, 44th president of the United States
monday update! 1.19.09
this week: workworkworkworkwork to pay off that ticket!
current obsession: how dry my face is, and how IMPOSSIBLE it is to get it to absorb moisture for WHATEVER reason!
current guilty pleasure: hypochondria and barack obama
currently reading: Snuff, Frankenstein
currently wearing: Jimmy Buffet boxers with boozing parrots on them and a sea-blue baseball ringer.
currently craving: chapstick....
“Breaking Dawn is like really bad fan fiction.”
– My sister Emily
I see what she means, but sometimes really bad fan fiction is really fun to read like that adult Harry Potter site Rach linked me to. I’ve been having trouble putting Breaking Dawn down. I’m about halfway through and will probably be much further by tonight. So yeah, if you need me,...
Omg ariel drunk dial meeeee D:
At a show with ash. Girl dancing. Hilarity. Needs lessons from isa.
Best part of being moved from the front end to bakery for an evening: potty breaks whenever you want.
ugh I really need to stop being addicted to roleplaying…
They had ingrid michaelson’s cd at the library!!!
inspiration has struck...
and I’ve finally started the re-write of chapter two! a little insight on liam… ;DD intrigue!
Yet another economics lecture slept through. Yet I got a 92 on the test. No big thang.
:] I’m SO excited about all the positive feedback teddies is getting!
brainstorm via tumblr!
we got assigned our senior papers for AP English Lit IV today, so I’m gonna’ do a little brainstorm here on tumblr. please reblog if you like any of my ideas, etc.!
the assignment: “The AP English IV persuasive research paper should assert and support a position that assimilates concepts from AP IC + AP III combined with an area of personal interest. The style of your paper...
monday update 1.12.09
this week: school, work, work, work, work, concert?
current obsession: fabyuhluhs.com!
current guilty pleasure: kettle chips and chili cheese fritos. they should NOT exist, for the love of my childbearing hips! D:
currently reading: frankenstein, european history text documents (or rather, should be…)
currently wearing: black work pants, black v-neck, white old navy sweater, and an...
took a bunch of authory type pictures and wasted SOO Much time!
cue the angry grocery rant
For all of you that don’t know, I work at Tom Thumb, which is a Safeway company grocery store. I hate my job. There are very few things in the world that I hate more than my job. I hate groceries, and I hate the people who buy them. The only reason I work at a grocery store in the first place is because I didn’t have to interview since my dad works there. So here’s a little...
At church- still thrilled!!! Faaaaaaab!
ahhh! yesss! :]
I think I just love seeing my picture under ‘contributors’ <33
sadiefab:
rachfab:
ugh why do I keep checking fabyuhluhs like something’s going to change?
you’re hoping that i’ll post naked pictures.
SORRY IT’S NOT ALLOWED, D;<
omg I am! D: did you watch my new vlog?
ugh why do I keep checking fabyuhluhs like something’s going to change?
new vlog = up!
internet is back! yesssss
making my new vlog… what do you guys want me to talk about? :]
“Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children and live a life of...”
– Ephesians 5:1-2
awesome.
as if this day could get ANY better. not one ridiculous ticket, but TWO. a grand total total of
$345
as a gift from the city of plano.
[insert f-starting expletive here]
I’m going to have to get another job.
found it! you'll only get it if you've read... →
If you like Pride & Prejudice and you like... →
(via daniellefab)
I adore these things. have you seen the one from hamlet?
apparently I'm five parts nothing?
How to make a Rachel Ingredients: 1 part friendliness 3 parts silliness 5 parts Method: Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add a little curiosity if desired!
monday update: 1.05.09
hey guys, so every monday I’m going to be doing this update about what’s going on, just reflect on what’s coming up and my life etc. etc.
this week: back to school tues. five classes a day. helloooo senior year!
current obsession: the ting tings
current guilty pleasure: reality television. ugh.
currently reading: deathly hallows. frankenstein.
currently wearing: jeans, the...
writing fabyuhluhs stuff- playlist, book edits :]